Looking Up

SHUT UP IT'S GOING TO BE 2015 TOMORROW!?  I'm still not skinny, rich, or graduated from school. However, I have become really good at finding strategic methods to pack all my belongings in my car (I've moved 6 times, and it's become more handy than you would think), I have also become really good at avoiding the gym, and of course managed to make Diet Coke the main staple in my diet.  I realized that I am actually an 80 year old in a 21 year old body. I can't stay awake past 11 and I actually borrow clothes from my grandma's closet. 

Perhaps the hardest thing that I have still not learned is how to date/ find the right people to date. It's actually a pretty common thing. Well.. that's what I tell myself. I fell in love with the most perfect guy. He had the best smile, he had a great laugh, he would open the doors for me, he would help me with my math homework, he always smelled good, he would wash my windshield while I got gas, he would send text messages that would make me all giddy, we'd go to the movies,  he would read books that I recommended (okay, just one, but still), we sometimes would just chat with his parents *swoon*, he would make chocolate chip cookies while I studied, he would take me to dinner, AND he even pretended to like my cooking. It was perfect while it lasted and then we just stopped talking. Out of NOWHERE. What's the proper way to find closure in that?  "hey I know we've been best friends for a couple months now but, see you never. And then you're just suppose to never talk to them again? I guess so! Time will pass and hopefully those feelings will too. *fingers crossed*

I know it sounds weird but I HAVE THE BEAUTY IN BEING ALONE

*dramatic pause* 

Maybe I take that back because that sounds a little depressing and slightly dramatic. I like being alone. I like going to restaurants and saying "table for one, please". Taking bubble baths while watching The Fault In Our Stars. Or going to the movies and getting one ticket. Or going to Swig and getting a 44 oz Diet Coke with lemon wedge and yelling Taylor Swift lyrics and not actually knowing where I'm going. As weird as it sounds you should like being alone too. I think it's important for a person to be happy by themselves before they can be happy with someone else. You should like yourself, right? 

Cheers to the new year! New can be beautiful and exhilarating. New can be awkward and scary. There will be days when you don't know if you are making all the right decisions. Days when you feel alone. There will be a lot of challenges and potential heartbreak. However, no matter what's in store embrace it and be sassy.

XOXO, 

Bree